Father Keating wrote, "The [spiritual] journey is a process of dismantling the monumental illusion that God is distant or absent." I used to think that God was separate from me which also led me to believe that I was unworthy of His gifts. Like many, I journeyed outside of myself in search of God's gifts--I went to churches, to groups, and to retreats to "feel" Him. All the while, He was there, waiting inside.
In addition to always being near, God has provided armor for us, gifts that help us on our everyday journey.
As mentioned in the Scripture, our helmet is the hope of salvation. Those who put on helmets feel safe during the duties that they carry out. When we understand that no matter what happens we are being cared for and protected, we tend to ease up. When we believe that He will guide us, forgive us, and carries us in His heart always, our lives will change. Why? It awakens us to peace. Because this belief and newfound trust in our protection will generate new thoughts and new behaviors. Because with fear and angst gone, we begin to think, feel, and see the world, our lives, and the souls around us differently.
As we, spiritual beings, strive to walk this human journey, the Word of God may seem extremely intimidating. Even as a young adult, I saw the Word of God as something I couldn’t keep up with and would ultimately disappoint. I didn’t feel worthy. And though it's true that the Word is here to correct us, it is also here to heal us. The Word never makes you feel small. It is always loving as He is. For any obstacle, the Word can be a kind invitation to growth, a reminder of love, or a promise of hope.
God is never distant or absent. The same goes for His gifts. God is not outside of you, He lies within. No one is unworthy because He is in all of us. No one is left behind because He is always watching over.
The more that we get to know Him, sit down with Him, let him into our minds and hearts, the more these gifts begin to reveal themselves. And just like that, the weight of your worries and fears may begin to feel a little lighter and the thirst for more a little greater.