Like many who believe in a higher power, I kneel down and ask for the things that I really want. Admittedly, I have always thought that if I didn’t get what I wanted it meant something about me. In short, I guess, I took it personally. As I grew older, I found myself stuck at the foot of the bed asking Him for the same things over and over again to no avail. The same inane questions would surface:
How can I change this? Why won’t this budge? Why are others advancing? Is it me?
I tried everything to answer each one of these questions, always misguided by the intention to “understand my circumstances.”
A few months back, I was in a meeting when someone started pushing me to give my availability to help on an additional project. I felt uncomfortable being hassled on an assignment that I hadn’t agreed to. I brushed it off. All day I thought about the imposition of that extra meeting. They had assumed that I was onboard, but I wasn’t. I felt a cold chill slip into where my mind had cracked open.
What if I had assumed God was on board with my plans and he really wasn’t?
I realized that I hadn’t been surrendering to God’s desires. Instead, I had been asking him---begging him, actually, to surrender to my own. OOPS.
We are not privy to his plans, so it makes sense that we get confused along the way. What we are responsible for is keeping a strong connection to Him each and every day. If you can believe it, this is accomplished by inviting Him in. My prayer is much shorter these days, and I don’t limit it to the foot of the bed anymore:
“Dear God, I surrender my plan, and I ask that you align me with yours.”
If we open our hearts to him, he will make good on his promise and “give you the desires of your heart” because your desires will be the same as his.