Prayer is an important part of life. I had never thought of it that way.
Moreover, I never thought that I would have to learn to pray, but I did. It has been a process. I discovered all these layers getting in the way of my prayer—shame, unworthiness, guilt.
Gradually, I went from “How could I ask for that?” to “How could I not?” I gave up the self-pity, and I just went for it. I let myself be loved, taken care of, and guided. I began to open up about my feelings, the why’s, and the expectations. And with this, I actually began to build a relationship with Him. A real, humble relationship.
I am learning to have a true relationship with God, which has given a new breath of life to the other relationships around me. I have discovered that prayer is the emptying of one’s self to God and the constant doing of this exercise renews our hearts, minds, and our relation to others.
The first time I read this verse of Jesus retreating to pray, I thought, “Of course he did.” If we want to love as he did, inspire as he did, believe as he did, we must retreat and pray as he did, too.