Growing up, I was the kid who wanted new books instead of new toys. I did my homework days in advance and got top grades without my parents nagging me to study. I even got accepted to college early without my parents knowing I had sent any applications.
On paper, I sound like a parent's dream come true—but the effects on my soul were devastating.
Fast forward a few years, and this self-starter-ness became part of my identity—and how I measured my self-worth. If I landed a big client, I was indispensable. If I made a mistake, I was insignificant.
Until I had a baby.
Five months after my baby boy was born, I decided to put my career aside to dedicate more time to being a mom. Accomplishments like increasing my monthly profits were replaced with making it through the supermarket without tears.
Marianne Williamson once wrote,
“Every relationship, every situation is part of a divinely created and highly specific curriculum for your soul growth.”
And that’s what happened to me. Now, after two solid years of not “working,” my soul has been cleansed.
I once planned on working in Silicon Valley on some important project that people would admire, or a big shot writer who published bestsellers that readers would line up to buy. Instead, God decided to use my experience as a mother to put those plans on hold. Only then was He able to reach me, to show me that it’s time for me to work on His purpose instead.
Now, when I work, the projects I take on and the worth I derive from them are profoundly different.
I know you have grand plans, like I did. But have you stopped to consider God’s plans for you, as well?